Because I was afraid of the recognition my light had seen in yours, I ran, and ran. And as I ran, I threw shafts of darkness your way, conjuring erasure, willing the shadows to take over.
I did not know all this will come to be--I was so certain, my love, so certain. But the heart is wise in ways unknown to us.
I had consigned you to the shadows, but your light has shone through. Dazzled, I turned my turned back; dazzled, I stared. Dazzled, I allowed myself to be drawn in to you. Dazzled, I succumbed to your brilliance.
My nimble feet are nimble no more. The weak, blurred edges have given way to clarity. I now recognize what I have always known to be sacred, what I have felt to be more powerful than the strength I tried to break it with.
And now here I am, bathed in the glow of you. Breathless from running away, and scarred in the struggle, I recognize my defeat and lay my (erstwhile) hesitant heart before your feet.
And what now, my love? What now?
ReplyDeleteYou ran, yes you ran to a place where I could not follow yet my mind and my heart tried as far as reality could take them. But you left behind a piece of your heart which I will keep forever. You are gone but your memory will live in my heart forever...