Whistling for Moonbeams

from chapter 10, p. 497: And she, Frederica, had had a vision of being able to be all the things she was: language, sex, friendship, though...

is seeing one's child shed quiet tears. Thank you for getting well, my baby. You gave mommy quite a scare.

We talk of sadness and agree not to.

" As though the very act of unbosoming one's secret self were simply another way of affirming it ." -J. Neil C. Garcia, Myths ...

Yesterday, over snacks of cookies and chocolate cake: JACKIE: Mommy, which would you rather choose, the heart or the soul? ME: (silence) KIM...

So this is what it's like on a Monday morning here. There are too many people, too much noise from the adjacent road, too many conversat...

Facing a door almost always brings about that feeling of waiting, that sense of expectation, some imminent arrival-- even when there is no b...

“Fear can keep us up all night long, but faith makes one fine pillow.” -author unknown-

"Being alone: there's a certain dignity to it." -Janet Livermore, "Singles" 1992-

I keep hearing more and more people end their sentences with "or am I just getting old?" Or am I just getting old?

I was sitting in front of my office desk this morning, staring at the PC and not trying very hard to lull myself out of the lazy, hazy stupo...

This statement poses a lot of questions. Hopefully, I would be able to come up with answers. I know, I know. I'm just being emotional. B...

From Vanity Fair : "First, the Proust questionnaire was dreamed up neither by Vanity Fair nor indeed by Proust. In fact, it was a Paris...

My fifth Almodovar ("Women on the Verge of a Nervous Breakdown", 1988)

My friend, M--, is very anal about his books, which translates to his being finicky, as well, when it comes to my books. He used to scold m...

I can resist most chocolates, but not Twix. This is a staple . period period period. Ube hopia. Sarap! Especially if it's eaten after be...

My lunch: After lunch: The only thing missing was a breeze.

four years ago, she was a brown, bent object hunched amongst six years worth of her life--six years' worth, four years ago--wrapped in b...

You know the parlor trick. wrap your arms around your own body and from the back it looks like someone is embracing you her hands grasping y...

"Just because there are things I don't remember doesn't make my actions meaningless." -Leonard Shelby, "Memento"...

When we talk about other people, we do so in fragments. Fragments, because, in reality, that is all we have of them and that is all we will ...

and I sure know I'm not talking about the weather. So, yeah, I guess this is me: Gloomy. Old. Eeyore.

shut it out shut it out over and over exhale put it in a paper bag and throw it away but...

It saddens me to think of all the words I should have written down that I had let go of, instead. The absoluteness of their loss weighs down...

- Etty Hillesum- And so, it goes, that we sometimes find ourselves gasping from running too fast. We race with seconds and outrun minutes, t...

BEFORE: Double tall mocha, please. NOW: Double, non-fat, no whipped cream, 2 packs Splenda,tall mocha, please.

As a tot she was Surrounded by fishbowl silence She had no horns No wings, no tail Just a smile nobody Noticed while adults Talked at mealti...

I departed from my usual greens-and-wheat bread-and-proteins diet today. Ate lasagna (I had one plate and finished the portion my son had le...

What torture lurks within a single thought When grown too constant, and however kind, However welcome still, the weary mind Aches with its p...

Tell me about your childhood. Tell me about what you woke up to each day, and what woke you up. What time on your clock? Were your sheets so...

A friend shared this video on his facebook. "Gethsemane" is my favorite song from "Jesus Christ, Superstar" (1973). One ...

She looked up, her gaze fixing on me. Her eyes had a guarded look to them, which soon, however, assumed an intensity that she, perhaps, coul...

"Women get the last word in every argument. Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument." -author unknown

For the past several days, I've been feasting on greens (with Caesar as my preferred dressing) and whole wheat bread. (I don't eat i...

Drat, I can't find the Cristina Pantoja Hidalgo essay I had been meaning to base this post on. I skimmed through her Coming Home , which...

I have just discovered, today, that James Merrill was a Pisces. He would have turned 84 this coming March 3rd. from "The Broken Home...

LOSSES It was not dying: everybody died. It was not dying: we had died before In the routine crashes-- and our fields Called up the papers, ...

I bought my daughter her second pair of gladiator sandals last Saturday. She loved them, of course--she seems to love everything I get for h...

You know how there are topics that we avoid, words, even, or names that we try so hard not to utter in conversations, both with someone else...

But if I ever found myself where you are now, would I be able to stand up and move forward? And do you think you could retrace the steps I t...

And the snapshots, of course. The times that I looked at the ten or so pictures which my mom put in an album, my mind registered a blank, an...

Last Saturday, I received what was probably one of the best news via text message that I've gotten in a long, long while: AN ENTIRE WEEK...

...and i knew then it would be a life long thing but i didn't know that we we could break a silver lining and i'm so sad like a good...

If you were falling, then I would catch you You need a light, I'd find a match Cuz I love the way you say good morning And you take me t...

scatters shadows on the streets: a tree here a bramble there and shrubs or someone walking--

to fill our days with something, some thing, anything-- did we waste time?

Then there was that time when she, thirteen years old and sulking, refused to eat her meals but for a few bites, staring, instead, out the w...

Choose the best answer: a) be happy b) sulk